She says he says, but she could be lying to me, and he could be lying to her, so I can’t believe her, even if I could believe her.

all is phony.

People are not who they say but rather who their actions reveal them to be....Be smart about it. Don't fall for the bullshit.

I am part of what she thinks is her illness, a symptom of which she thinks she has been cured. She, on the other hand, is what I was looking for.

Dispute not with her: she is lunatic.

A woman who doesn't lie is a woman without imagination and without sympathy.

I thought suddenly that she wasn't real; she was just a mass of talk out of guidebooks, of drawings out of fashion-plates.

People often think I'm a faker, but I'm usually honest, in a certain way — in such a way that often nobody believes me!

She's such a goddamn liar maybe she don't know herself anymore.

And woe betide the person with the 'double abnormality' of a false self and 'a fine intellect' that they find they can use to escape their pain.

'The world may observe academic success of a high degree, and may find it hard to believe in the very real distress of the individual concerned, who feels 'phoney' the more he or she is successful. [as quoted by Winnicott]

There's a crazy lady living in your head. I hope you'll be comforted to hear that you're not alone. Most of us have an invisible inner terrible someone who says all sorts of nutty stuff that has no basis in truth.

...for my master, bad as I have thought him, is not half so bad as this woman. — To be sure she must be an atheist!

Q. In considering likes and dislikes, how can one separate what is real and what is false personality?

A. Start by realizing that it is all false personality, and then try to find out
what is not. You cannot do the second before the first. First you must understand that all is false personality, and when you become convinced
of that, you may find what is 'yourself'. Go on observing. Work begins
from the moment one realizes that one is not. When it enters into every-
thing, when it becomes a realization, then it is productive work. But when one thinks of oneself as 'I' (the whole), then it is not productive work.
You must understand that false personality is a very elusive thing. It is one, it does not consist of different personalities; but at the same time it contains contradictory and incompatible features, features that cannot manifest themselves at the same time. So it does not mean that you can see the whole of your false personality at one moment. Sometimes you can see more of it, at other times certain features of it manifest themselves separately. Also it must be remembered that false personality is often rather attractive or amusing, particularly for other people who live in their false personalities. So when you begin to lose your false personality, when you begin to struggle with it, people will not like you. They will tell you that you have become dull.

You told me, just now, just today, that you'd rather be dead than have to go through this much longer. I take that seriously. I don't think your suffering is fake. I don’t think these feelings about wanting it to end are fake. I don’t think your self-hatred is fake. So why do you think it’s fake?