I think: you deserve to be what you are if you could bare to get that way. You must have seen it coming. And now there's nothing for you here. No one will protect you, and people won't see any reason not to do you harm.

आप वही हैं, जो आप तब होते हैं, जब कोई नहीं देख रहा होता है।

When I came home I expected a surprise and there was no surprise for me, so of course, I was surprised.

And if no one sees you, are you really there at all?

لم تنتظر أحداً
مشيتَ على رصيفك سادراً
ومشيتُ خلفك حائراً.
والشمسُ غابت خلفنا...
ودَنوْتَ مني خطوةً أو خطوتين
فلم تجدني واقفاً أو ماشياً
ودَنوتُ منك فلم أجدك...

أكنتُ وحدي دون أن أدري
بأني كنت وحدي؟ لم تقل
إحدى النساء : هناك شخصٌ ما
يطارد نفسَهُ!

But what am I going to see?

I don't know. In a certain sense, it depends on you.

إن الذي تقبل عليه الدنيا لا يزور احدا أدبرت عنه، فلماذا جاء؟

If you do not follow somebody you feel very lonely. Be lonely
then. Why are you frightened of being alone? Because you are
faced with yourself as you are and you find that you are empty,
dull, stupid, ugly, guilty and anxious - a petty, shoddy, secondhand
entity. Face the fact; look at it, do not run away from it. The
moment you run away fear begins.

The woman who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd. The woman who walks alone is likely to find herself in places no one has ever been before.

You don’t see much of any path unless you are Janus, looking simultaneously backward and forward.

You know how it is when you go to be the subject of a psychology experiment and nobody else shows up and you think maybe that's part of the experiment? I'm like that all the time.

"You're a stalker with hooves."
"I am not! I followed her to the Big House and hid in a bush and watched the whole thing."

I think she was just travelling. I don't think she had any idea of finding whoever it was she was following.

I felt foolish and tired, as if I had been running to escape someone chasing me, only to look behind to discover there was no one there.