Experienced professionals? They have dragged out their life in stupor and semi-sleep, they have married hastily, out of impatience, they have made children at random. They have met other men in cafés, at weddings and funerals. Sometimes, caught in the tide, they have struggled against it without understanding what was happening to them. All that has happened around them has eluded them; long, obscure shapes, events from afar, brushed by them rapidly and when they turned to look all had vanished. And then, around forty, they christen their small obstinacies and a few proverbs with the name of experience, they begin to simulate slot machines: put a coin in the left hand slot and you get tales wrapped in silver paper, put a coin in the slot on the right and you get precious bits of advice that stick to your teeth like caramels.

Amateurs might lack formal training, but they’re all lifelong learners, and they make a point of learning in the open, so that others can learn from their failures and successes.

The amateur allows his worth and identity to be defined by others. The amateur craves third-party validation. The amateur is tyrannized by his imagined conception of what is expected of him. He is imprisoned by what he believes he ought to think, how he ought to look, what he ought to do, and who he ought to be.

But my poor Saul, there’s no help for you, you’re heading straight for it. What about all those marvelous people we know, aged about fifty or sixty? Well, there are a few of them…marvelous, mature, wise people. Real people, the phrase is, radiating serenity. And how did they get to be that way? Well, we know, don’t we? Every blood one of them’s got a history of emotional crime, oh the sad bleeding corpses that litter the road to maturity of the wise, serene man or woman of fifty-odd! You simply don’t get to be wise, mature, etc., unless you’ve been a raving cannibal for thirty years or so.

Amateurs are not afraid to make mistakes or look ridiculous in public. They're in love, so they don't hesitate to do work that others think of as silly or just plain stupid. [...] Amateurs know that contributing something is better than contributing nothing.

People over forty can seldom be permanently convinced of anything. At eighteen our convictions are hills from which we look; at forty-five they are caves in which we hide.

Мне стыдно за мсье Ахилла. Мы с ним два сапога пара, мы должны быть заодно против них. А он меня предал и перешел на их сторону: он искренне верит – верит в Опыт. Не в свой, не в мой. А в опыт доктора Роже.

Как бы я хотел сказать ему, что его обманывают, что он подыгрывает спесивцам. Это они-то профессионалы опыта? Да они всю жизнь прозябали в отупелом полусне, от нетерпения женились с бухты-барахты, наудачу мастерили детей. В кафе, на свадьбах, на похоронах встречались с другими людьми. Время от времени, попав в какой-нибудь водоворот, барахтались и отбивались, не понимая, что с ними происходит. Все, что совершалось вокруг, начиналось и кончалось вне поля их зрения: смутные продолговатые формы, события, нагрянувшие издали, мимоходом задели их, а когда они хотели разглядеть, что же это такое, – все уже было кончено. И вот к сорока годам они нарекают опытом свои мелкие пристрастия и небольшой набор пословиц и начинают действовать, как торговые автоматы: сунешь монетку в левую щелку – вот тебе два-три примера из жизни в упаковке из серебряной фольги, сунешь монетку в правую щелку – получай ценные советы, вязнущие в зубах, как ириски.

Только все дело в том, что эти разговоры набили мне оскомину еще в юности. Правда, вырос я не в семье профессионалов. Но существуют ведь и любители. Секретари, служащие, торговцы, те, кто в кафе слушают других; к сорока годам их распирает опыт, который они не могут сбыть на сторону. По счастью, они наплодили детей, их-то они и заставляют потреблять этот опыт, не сходя с места. Они хотели бы внушить нам, что их прошлое не пропало даром, что их воспоминания потихоньку сгустились, обратившись в Мудрость. Удобное прошлое! Карманное прошлое, книжица из золотой библиотеки, полная прописных истин. «Поверьте мне, я говорю на основании опыта, всему, что я знаю, меня научила жизнь». Да разве Жизнь взялась бы думать за них? Все новое они объясняют с помощью старого, а старое – с помощью событий еще более древних...

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The sign of the amateur is overglorification of and preoccupation with the mystery. The professional shuts up. She doesn't talk about it. She does her work.

At the age of forty the life you have lived so far, always pro tem, has for the first time become life itself, and this reappraisal swept away all dreams, destroyed all your notions that real life, the one that was meant to be, the great deeds you would perform, was somewhere else. When you were forty you realized it was all here, banal everyday life, fully formed, and it always would be unless you did something. Unless you took one last gamble.

Usually the amateur is defined as an immature state of the artist: someone who cannot — or will not — achieve the mastery of a profession. But in the field of photographic practice, it is the amateur, on the contrary, who is the assumption of the professional: for it is he who stands closer to the (i)noeme(i) of Photography.

When we have passed a certain age, the soul of the child that we were and the souls of the dead from whom we sprang come and shower upon us their riches and their spells, asking to be allowed to contribute to the new emotions which we feel and in which, erasing their former image, we recast them in an original creation.

Forty is a most beautiful age for both men and women. Did you know that in mystic thought forty symbolizes the ascent from one level to a higher one and spiritual awakening? When we mourn we mourn for forty days. When a baby is born it takes
forty days for him to get ready to start life on earth. And when we are in love we need to wait for forty days to be sure of our feelings.
The Flood of Noah lasted forty days, and while the waters destroyed life, they also washed all impurity away and enabled human beings to make a new, fresh start. In Islamic mysticism there are forty degrees between man and God. Likewise, there are four basic stages of consciousness and ten degrees in each, making forty levels in total. Jesus went into the wilderness for forty days and nights. Muhammad was forty years old when he received the call to become a prophet. Buddha meditated under a linden tree for forty days. Not to mention the forty rules of Shams.
You receive a new mission at forty, a new lease on life! You have reached a most auspicious number. Congratulations! And don’t worry about getting old. There are no wrinkles or gray hair strong enough to defy the power of forty!

Grown-ups have developed an unpleasant habit of comforting themselves for their degradation by pretending that children are childish.

Amateurs have a goal. Professionals have a process.